Yesterday I woke up with no feeling at all. 

The day before yesterday, I woke up with no feeling at all.

This is something that I have grown accustomed to. 

Apathy is not something that people know me for, but when asked to choose an adjective describing myself, I immediately would choose apathetic.

God did not make ANY OF US apathetic beings; I don't believe that he called us to be apathetic at all. 

He has called us to make disciples of all nations (Matthew 28:19), to love our neighbors as we love ourselves (Leviticus 19:18), and to surrender all to God in humility (Mark 8:34). 

None of those verses have called me to be apathetic.

I have to make disciples, love, and surrender. 

The cool thing about yesterday when I woke up, I had a tugging on my heart.  I was completely aware that I was apathetic and that it was wrong, and I FELT like today was a day of change.  A change that I've wanted for so long, but have been unable to grasp  because of my lack of trust and faith in God and in people. 

At church, I was in complete awe.  The pastor was preaching about AWAKENING THE CHURCH.  The first thing that came to my head was my apathy.  I was like THIS IS FOR ME! In God's perfect timing, he released me from that bondage, and every since yesterday I have been texting people like crazy asking them what's going on in their lives, how I can pray for them, and what it is that I can do in their lives.

FINALLY I'm feeling something and care about the will of God. 

I finally surrendered my hardheadedness so that now I can love and make disciples.

Praise God that He doesn't give up on people!

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I love you all; I'm praying for you all; and I most definitely CANNOT wait to meet you!

Katherine